This is the depression test.
Sometimes my mind takes me
to dark places.
I’m the only one there.
It’s cold and grey
and it tortures and tortures me
until my heart disappears
and there’s nothing left.
I wish I was like him, or him,
or her, or her.
But no, welcome back,
my old friend.
We first met in a dream.
I walked down that long hall.
But the hall never ended.
It just became eternal
and dark. And void.
Since then, you’ve always been
here with me,
this demonic oblivion,
my best friend.
You know me inside and out
and you poison me
with your lonely torture.
We’re in hell.
And you push me over the edge.
Push me over the edge
until it’s over.
Now, God, walk with me
through this pain.
If you won’t take it away,
press Your mighty hand against my back
and turn this pain to strength
until I look my enemy in the eyes
and step on its grave.
*This is not a depression test. The depression is the test.
Photo by Michael Jasmund on Unsplash.
If you liked this poem, please check out “Daily Life” by Chaotically Small Poetry, as well as my own poem “Life is Beautiful.”
© Joey Blue and thepoetryaboutus.com, 2018. All rights reserved.
This spoke to me deeply. I love how you end it — depression is the test. The call to Almighty for strength is so empowering. Thank you for these words. 🙂
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Thank you Krishna, as always appreciate your comments.
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This is so deeply truthful and absolutely beautiful poem! I agree with your perspective that depression is the test. I loved how you turned it into strength and assurance.
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Thank you, Pragalbha. I always appreciate kind words.
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You are very welcome.
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I especially LOVE the final 7 lines–oh wow, YES, that’s the word of encouragement I sorely needed tonight…so thank you, and God bless you.
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Thanks I’m glad you like it. I simply was just parked in the mall parking lot and wrote what I was feeling, as I felt it.
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WOW, that’s amazing…sometimes haiku will strike me when I’m standing at the intersection waiting to cross, haha! We’ll take our inspiration wherever it comes, right? 🙂
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Right! 😃
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🙂
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